
I precisely remember the moment I bought my first Cosmopolitan magazine.
I was in the car, and on the radio Cosmo was being advertised- this particular story was about moving and living in another country. It was a cover story, and I was young and dreaming of New York so I begged my parents to buy it for me, a scantily clad Miranda Kerr on the cover. That day forward, Cosmo was a monthly addition to my life.
But before Cosmo, was Dolly.
I had to feed a neighbours cat whilst they were away on holiday for a few weeks, and as payment, she bought me a Dolly magazine. I read it cover to cover, pulling out posters and pages that inspired me, and built a condensed version of the magazine in a plastic folder.
Around this time, I also read Zoe Foster Blake’s “Air Kisses”. I was maybe 11 or 12 years old, and after reading the book- I pushed aside my ambitions to be an Olympic swimmer (I hadn’t been doing lessons for at least 2 years at this point 😅) and declared I wanted to be a beauty editor at a magazine. I told my then-best friend and she said to me, “you could be better than that. Be the big editor.”
She planted the seed in my head… And so, our class magazine was born. It went under two names- from memory- “Seriously Sassy” and “Secret Sisters”. I was the editor, agony aunt, beauty editor and more- getting classmates to do other columns. I remember chasing people to submit their articles, cover shoots in the playground, and publishing in black and white because we couldn’t make 20 copies of a 20 paged zine in colour, of course. Our class teacher was so supportive, and allowed time on Friday afternoons for us to spend creating the magazine.
I remember once, after we had done a dedicated page to One Direction, my teacher called me into her office and gave me posters from a weekend paper of 1D. I was so excited!
This whole “magazine epiphany” all occurred in a short period of time. So whilst I was busily creating my Grade 5/6 magazine, I was reading Dolly.
My favourite section was beauty, by Sara McLean. Then one fateful day, she announced she was leaving Dolly. My heart broke. I couldn’t imagine what would happen to my beloved beauty section once she was gone. So I sent her a hurried email telling her how much I love her work and how I’d miss her. I *wish* I could find that email. She emailed me back quickly, assuring me that Gyan Yankovich was filling her role and to trust her, we were in good hands. So I waited to read Gyan’s first piece- where she wrote her name phonetically so we would know how to pronounce it- and I remember thinking “yep, I like her.”
Fast forward to high school, where I began reading Cosmo and Cleo. I recognised a lot of names and faces from my Dolly days and I began to understand the ruthless nature of magazines- or the behind the scenes of them.
I had taken to reading Cleo more regularly than Cosmo because I had received a subscription for Christmas. But I was also discovering the world of the internet. I loved (and love) The Design Files and The Grace Tales… they were like digital magazines and Lucy Feagins and Georgie Abay filled the Sara McLean hole in my heart. If you’re wondering, The Grace Tales is a parenting site- but I loved seeing business women, fashion and recipes merge on there.
One day when scrolling, I saw that Bronwyn Mccahon had a feature on TGT. And she’d had her third baby! It shocked me that I had missed this major news, so ran out to buy Cosmo immediately.
Then my months consisted of a rotation of Cleo, Dolly and Cosmo. To be transparent- I never read Girlfriend- except for when they had poster books attached- because, 1D gal at heart. 😉
When Cleo and Dolly shut down, I cried. I don’t have the last issue of Dolly nor Cleo, because I could never find them in store. It would seem other girls wanted to hold on to those teenage memories too. By the time Cosmo announced its closure, I had no more tears. I’d endured this disappointment before. But that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt. I picked up the last issue and read it mournfully. But I will always treasure that issue because it introduced me to my favourite Burt’s Bees tinted lip balm (in the shade Red Dahlia) 😉 What helped with the sadness, was the outpouring of love on social media. The current and ex team members with their heart felt posts, reminiscing and thanking the magazine for all it gave them. The womanhood behind magazines is what lives on, now that the doors have closed.
Nowadays, I can find my favourites from my magazine days on Mamamia, Buzzfeed and more. It always makes me feel proud when I see their name in the byline and see their career progression. These women were, are, and always will be my ultimate inspirations. I feel sad for girls that don’t have a magazine to turn to. But I trust that they have these amazing women – and their wealth of knowledgeable- accessible on the internet. That’s why I have this blog. To contribute to that space that girls turn to now.
And by the way, my dream is still to be a beauty editor at a magazine.
Below, in no particular order, are the women who I remember to have written my favourite magazines. I will always be thankful to have read your words.
Leigh Campbell
Sara McLean
Gyan Yankovich
Bronwyn Mccahon
Leda Ross
Charlotta Buckland
Alissa Thomas
Julia Naughton
Jessica Bailey
Dani Pinkus
Rebecca Hooton
Harriet McCready
Zoe Foster Blake
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